Laying It All Out

I actually was going to post something like this a few days ago and then deleted it. I guess I was afraid of opening up too much. I was afraid of saying the wrong thing, of what people might think, etc. I’ve always been afraid of discussing sensitive and controversial topics, for fear that I might offend, but today I realized something. That fear is the enemy trying to silence me. He would love nothing more than to silence us and I’m at a point where I no longer want to be burdened by silence.

When I saw that video of George Floyd being killed, I was, like I’m sure you were, angry and heartbroken. There is just no way to justify what happened. It doesn’t matter what his past was, what mistakes he may have made in his life. He did not deserve to die and I understand why people are angry. My heart breaks for George Floyd and his family and others like him. No one is perfect and everyone deserves a chance to live and to make a better life for themselves. For victims of senseless murders, they have that chance taken away from them. Their voices are forever silenced and that breaks my heart.

Now, I see these protests happening and I have felt challenged to think about my own thoughts and what I believe in. I have never been one to publicly address my own views and even when I may be thinking something, I never speak up for fear of what others might think. Like I mentioned in that first paragraph, this is just the enemy trying to silence my voice. I look at every emotion I’ve been feeling these past two weeks and I feel like God was trying to get my attention. “Use your voice. Speak up for what you believe in.”

Well, that’s what I’m going to do here. The whole point of this blog is for me to share my inner thoughts with the world, so here we go. I am a supporter of the First Amendment. I believe in freedom of speech, freedom of religion, freedom of the press, the right to petition the government, and yes, the freedom to peacefully assemble. If you want to go out and stand up for what you believe in, if that means attending a protest and sharing your experiences and addressing the problems you have faced, then you better believe I will defend your right to do that. I am not going to stand here and tell people about their experiences, just like I don’t want people coming up to me and acting like they know my life better than I do.

What I don’t support? Setting stuff on fire, assaulting people in the streets, and looting stores. It’s not okay, it makes me sick to see it, and I am not going to sit here and say that it’s okay, because it’s not. I watched riot coverage for two days and barely, if at all, did I see mention of George Floyd. Because the focus wasn’t on equality and confronting injustices. No, all I saw on my TV were people setting shit on fire (excuse my language), beating each other up, and looting. Because yeah, nothing says justice like a 60″ flat screen. That was sarcasm, in case you couldn’t tell.

Look, I am not condemning people who are angry and frustrated about injustice. I know people are angry. I am not blaming anyone for being angry and hurt and scared, and I am not going to act like I understand anyone else’s experience. All I am saying is that burning our cities down is not going to make things better. Like I said, when I was watching the riots on TV, no one was talking about George Floyd or seeking justice, they were talking about the riots. Yes, that bothered me.

And here’s another thing! I believe that you can support good cops and not support the bad ones. Supporting our police does not mean that you support police brutality, abuse of power, or anything of the sort. If there are any corrupt people in our police system, then I want those people to see justice. However, there are innocent cops just trying to do their job that are getting stuff thrown at them, are beaten in the streets, and some have even gotten killed. How is that justice? How is that productive in any way? Why are people fighting evil with more evil?

I want you to take a look at someone.

This was Captain David Dorn. He was a retired police chief who was trying to defend his friend’s shop from looters. He was more than just a police officer, though. He was a husband, a father, and a grandfather. His life was cut short when it shouldn’t have been. Notice anything else? He was a black man. So yes, Black lives do matter. ALL black lives matter, including black police officers. You can’t be in support of Black Lives Matter without caring about every single black life. David Dorn should be alive today. Just like George Floyd, Ahmaud Arbery, Breonna Taylor, and so many others. If you want support Black Lives Matter, don’t be selective in which black lives you support.

Here’s something else I’ve thought about. A few weeks ago, people were protesting for their right to reopen their businesses and go back to work. I supported that protest too! Freedom of peaceful assemble, people! Now, I do have one complaint, though. Bringing your guns to the state capital. To me, that doesn’t strike me as a good way to protest. It looks threatening and I am fairly certain that it’s illegal. Just saying. Maybe keep the guns at home and bring a sign instead. Guns have bullets, signs do not.

I want to go back to our previous discussion now. Well, sort of. I am not black, so I obviously don’t know a black person’s experience. I’d be stupid to say I do. What the past two weeks have made me think about, though, are my own thoughts about the criminal justice system. So here’s a bit of a personal story. I never thought I’d be sharing this on my blog, but since I’m voicing everything else, I may as well share this.

On October 21st, 2004, my mother was murdered at the prison she worked at. She was a single mother working as a mail clerk because she, like other single moms, wanted to provide a good life for me. So she took this job. Well, there was an inmate who was working as a “trustee”. Basically, he displayed “good behavior” so he got special privileges. Well, that inmate was serving a life sentence for two counts of aggravated sexual assault. He had a clean disciplinary record and so he worked as a janitor assisting the prison’s administrative staff.

One day, my mom was getting ready to leave work, but first she had to take some files down to the file room. This sick human being was lurking, waiting, watching, and you know what he did? He shoved her into that room and she fought back, so he killed her. He strangled her to death. He was a two time sex offender and yet he was left alone where he could murder a woman. They actually trusted him to be alone and look what happened. So I don’t want to hear anyone lecture me about the criminal justice system because believe me, I get it. That criminal justice system you’re talking about? It allowed my mother’s killer privileges that he didn’t deserve.

But you know what else? I don’t hate every person that works in that prison or in criminal justice. A majority of people who work in criminal justice are good people who just want nothing more than to serve. There is that small percentage that are bad, but that doesn’t mean we should blame every single person associated with the profession.

This post was really hard for me to write. I have spent so long being afraid to speak up, to be bold in my beliefs and opinions, but this was it. This was me finally gathering enough courage to speak out instead of being overwhelmed by anxiety at the thought of pissing someone off if I say the wrong thing. I want to look at 2020 not as being a totall shitshow (again, excuse the language), but as a learning experience. I am learning that we are all different, we all have something to contribute to making our world a better place for ourselves and for future generations. Instead of letting hate fuel anger, I want to see people channel their energy into making a positive difference in our world. There’s still so much good out there, friends. Be the chance you wish to see. Take that love and light inside of you and spread it around to others. You never know the impact you might have.

Love,

Brooke

Finding Sunshine on a Cloudy Day

( I really need to get on a better writing schedule. Ugh.)

Anyway…

Happy Easter, friends! HE IS RISEN!

Now, for the main message. It has been about a month since social distancing became a thing due to the coronavirus pandemic. I’ll be honest, I don’t love talking about this topic because obviously it’s not a pleasant one. People have been dying, people have been getting sick, people have lost jobs and they’ve lost loved ones, and life has changed in many ways. We are full of anxiety because we fear getting the virus, we fear losing loved ones to the virus, we worry for jobs and the ability to put food on the table, etc. We are all worried about a lot of different things and it’s…not fun. It’s a huge bummer, really. Things are normal one minute and the next minute we’re all socially distacing because we’re afraid of a villain that we can’t actually see.

In times of uncertainty and grief, it’s hard to find positives. This is why I propose a challenge. If you are finding yourself constantly in a state of worry, I want you to take a look at your life and think of FIVE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU SMILE. It won’t make our current situation disappear, but I think we could all use a little encouragement. Here, I’ll start by listing five things that make ME smile:

  1. The two doves that sometimes sit outside my window in the morning. I’ll be laying in bed, then I’ll hear them coo so I get up and go to my window, and there they are! Just two of the cutest little birds enjoying the sunlight outside my window.
  2. Crocheting. I love the different colors and styles of yarn and deciding what to make with it. I’ve even made a couple of face masks and sewn fabric onto them for extra protection. Hey, experts recommend wearing some kind of facial covering and I figured I may as well have fun with it.
  3. Animals! I love coming online and seeing pictures and videos of animals being their adorable and silly selves.
  4. Writing. Whether it be poetry or creating characters and creating a storyline for them, it’s always fun to sit down and create something.
  5. MY NEW CAR! Yeah, I finally got that new car I’ve been wanting and I’m so grateful! It’s a 2020 Chevrolet Malibu in Northsky Blue Metallic and I LOVE IT.

See? Just five things! I know that things are really hard right now and smiling may seem impossible sometimes, but I hope that my little challenge can be of some assistance. And remember to count your blessings too! Even in the most difficult circumstances, there is always something to be thankful for.

If you feel that your mental health is being affected by everything going on, PLEASE REACH OUT. You are not alone! You are so loved! Social distancing doesn’t mean disconnecting from others. We are all in this together and we need to support each other through this difficult time. We will get through this!

And remember when I referred to Covid-19 as a villain? Well, for every villain, there is a superhero, and Jesus is that superhero! God, please be with our healthcare workers, health experts, leaders, and those who have suffered at the hands of this enemy. Help them through this difficult time and bring all of us through that light at the end of the tunnel. Amen.

I hope that I was able to provide some encouragement to you all and remember, PLEASE STAY HOME IF YOU CAN AND STAY SAFE. We are all in this together and we will come out of this situation stronger than ever!

Love, Brooke

Smiling in The Face of Adversity

Well, here we are. We are three months into 2020 and we are facing a pandemic. Not exactly what any of us were hoping for. Now, I’m not gonna lie, all the uncertainty does freak me out. Social distancing, businesses closing (at least for the time being), events being cancelled, people getting sick, etc. Yeah, it’s scary and truthfully, sometimes it’s hard for me to think positive, but my blog is not here to write about negativity. What I want to do is (hopefully) put a smile on your lovely faces.

First of all, I am trying to do the social distancing thing (other than an occasional, and necessary, run to the store and yesterday I did go to Tropical Smoothie Cafe drive-through) and I want to give you a glimpse at the project I have been working on while doing just that.

Yeah, I am crocheting another blanket and this one, finally, is something other than just stripes. I started from the center and crocheted outwards. Something fun and different, and very comfy for naps. Really, crocheted blankets are SO cozy. Trust me, I know. I have two others that I’ve snuggled up with.

I also got an iPad Air and an Apple Pencil a while back and I have been doing some drawing on there. I’m not great at it (YET! Practice makes perfect, people), but it’s fun and I’m having a great time learning.

Okay, now that I’ve told you what I’ve been doing, I want to share some of the positive stories that I’ve seen during this difficult time.

1. Penguins at Shedd Aquarium: https://www.delish.com/food-news/a31699299/chicago-aquarium-penguins-coronavirus/

LOOK HOW CUTE! These little guys were turned loose after the aquarium was closed to humans and they seemed to have the best time exploring! SO PRECIOUS.

2. Woman announcing engagement to grandfather: https://www.eonline.com/news/1132764/bride-to-be-surprises-her-quarantined-grandpa-with-engagement-news

This one, ya’ll. I’m just going to put a reaction image here because it’s too sweet for words.

3. Stores reserving hours for elderly customers: https://www.cbsnews.com/news/coronavirus-senior-hours-grocery-stores-reserve-shopping-hours-for-at-risk-people-during-covid-19-outbreak/

This is so nice! This is a vulnerable time for our elderly population and it’s so wonderful to see people supporting them. Stores reserving special hours just for the elderly, people offering to go shopping FOR them, etc. It’s beautiful to see these acts of kindness. (Also, if you have a loved one in a nursing home, please give them a call! I know some places are aren’t allowing in-person visits, but the phones are there, so please call them. I can only imagine how lonely and isolated they probably feel. The same goes for elderly people who live alone.)

4. NBA players and teams helping employees whose jobs have been put on hold: https://nba.nbcsports.com/2020/03/13/nba-players-teams-help-arena-workers/

Since the NBA season is postponed, there are people who would have been working at those games who don’t have a job now. So these players are pitching in to help these arena workers and that’s so nice to see them using their money for good.

5. Concerts from home: https://news.yahoo.com/artists-playing-live-concerts-homes-213251195.html

I am a music lover. I have artists that I love who have had to put their tours on hold. HOWEVER, there are some musicians who are making the most of this situation by playing concerts from their own homes! It’s nice, you know? I think it’s a great way to spread a little cheer during a challenging time. John Legend, Christ Martin, etc. Oh, and my personal favorite, Niall Horan (aka cute Irishman from One Direction). I sat down yesterday and watched his livestream yesterday, and it definitely brought a smile to my face. So thank you to Niall and the other artists doing this for their fans.

Those are just five stories I’ve seen, but there have been many more acts of kindness during this situation. As hard as it has been to watch this happening, I have just tried to think about the positives. In some ways, this has brought out the best in people. We’ve seen kindness, compassion, people being there for each other. I wish people could be like this all the time. Imagine what the world could be like if we were just a little kinder to each other.

On another note, could people please stop panic buying? It’s kind of frustrating to go to the store and see the shelves empty because people are hoarding toilet paper, paper towel, etc. I’m sorry, but you do not need 280 rolls of toilet paper for two weeks and if you do, then you should probably see a doctor.

But really, please stop panic buying. Panicking is not going to help the situation and it’s also selfish to hoard necessary things that people need.

Lastly, remember that human beings are resilient. We will get through this together. Remember to be kind to each other, support each other in whatever ways you can, and if you have an at-risk person in your life, give them a call and let them know that you care. Let them know that you are here for them.

– Brooke

The Adventure Begins

Over the past few years, I have gained a bit of weight, to simply put it. Anxiety and depression got the best of me and, like many people, I ate. Rough day? Oh look, there’s a lovely box of Oreos sitting on the counter? Tired of sitting in four walls and want an excuse to get out of the house? Hey, let’s go get some fast food even though it’s doing God-knows-what to the ol’ body.

Yeah, not really the best way to cope with the stresses of every day living. After a while, it soon isn’t about stress at all! Your stomach stretches out and you just…want…to…eat. THAT, my dear friends, became the story of my life the last few years. Look, there is a lot of delicious food out there and, I’m not gonna lie, I’m still going to treat myself every once in a while. But wearing tee shirts and jeans, and avoiding posting pictures of myself except on special occasions? It puts a damper on things after a while.

Plus, there’s also the fact that I get out of breath wayyyyy too easily. I’m out of shape and it’s a bummer. Not fun, not cool, just really unpleasant.

So I did the thing. I got a membership at my nearest gym and today I went over there and got a program designed just for me. One day I just got really sick and tired of feeling bad about myself and my body, and I said, “you know what? I’m gonna do something about it!” I’m going on Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday each week and I’m so excited to see my results in the coming months!

In the past, I’ve been terrible about sticking to a diet on my own. I would try for a little while, then I ended up stuffing my face and BOOM! Diet gone. So I decided that I needed a little extra nudge in the right direction, which is where the gym comes in. Trying to work out at home is hard for me because I’ve found it difficult to stay motivated. By joining a gym and getting a specific routine set up, I now have an organized plan and I am seriously ready to get down to business.

As I embark on this journey, I obviously want to share my progress with all of you, so I am going to post a “BEFORE” picture below and as I begin to shed the pounds and tone up, I’ll occasionally post a new pic so you can see how I’m doing!

I never like how I look in my pictures (the sweater is adorable, though. I love that sweater), but anyway, I think this makes a perfect “before” photo. As you can see, my weight gain is…noticeable. I’m not proud of my figure at the moment, but I know I will be. 2020 is the year that I am going to make the changes that I’ve been avoiding for way too long. This is the year that I am going to become a better, more confident, and happier version of myself.

Wish me luck, lovely readers! Hope you’re having a wonderful year so far ♥

– Brooke

A New Chapter

Well, everyone, 2019 is coming to a close. Not only that, but a new DECADE is beginning! Pretty crazy, right? Well, I thought it was only appropriate that I post a blog entry for this occasion!

So, at the beginning of the decade, I started college. I was excited to start the newest chapter of my life! I had my cute little dress and a bow/headband in my hair, and a cute pair of shoes, and I was ready to go! Overall, my college experience ended up being pretty great, but there were some challenges along the way. Not only did I have terrible test anxiety (I guess I was just afraid of failure), but I also went through some mental health struggles, specifically anxiety and depression. God helped me through it all, though, and I was able to fully enjoy my time in college! (Also, my college had dogs from the local animal shelter come before finals once and I was not about to miss out on THAT. Because, hello, DOGS MAKE EVERYTHING BETTER.)

The best part? I GRADUATED! in 2017, I got a Bachelor of Arts degree in English-Creative Writing and I now have my degree framed on a wall in my home office! My family came to my ceremony and afterwards we went to eat at Johnny Carino’s (We were going to go to Olive Garden, but the wait was waaaayyyy too long) and I had the most delicious chicken alfredo pasta! It was so nice to celebrate such an accomplishment surrounded by my loved ones.

Next, the time that I met Big Time Rush before their concert! At the beginning of the decade, I was a huge Big Time Rush fan and when they went on tour in 2013, I got tickets that also included the meet and greet package, and it was such a wonderful experience! I mean, WOW. I remember going to get my picture with them and they were honestly such nice guys. Not to mention that the concert was just…wow. It was so fun!

I also went to the aquarium in Corpus Cristi with my grandmother in 2018! I LOVE aquariums because you get to see creatures that you just don’t get to see every day! I mean, where else can you go to see a live shark? I’m certainly not about to dive into the Gulf of Mexico because, you know, I’d like to live to see the next decade. Plus, DOLPHINS. The aquarium has a little show with the dolphins where they do tricks and stuff, and they are just too cute!

I also took on new hobbies (knitting and crochet), improved other hobbies (I joined my local art league and I have been working on making my drawing better), I made new friends, and I FINALLY crocheted a cardigan!

So I had good times this decade, but there was also loss. In 2017, my grandpa went to Heaven after struggling with his health for quite a few years. It was hard to lose him, but I took comfort in knowing that he was with God and all the loved ones that have gone before him, including my mom. I realized that he no longer had to suffer. There would be no more struggling to breathe, no more trips to the hospital, no more pain and suffering. He never has to feel pain or heartbreak ever again.

We also got a blanket of snow that year! He passed away in May and it snowed that December. It was such a beautiful sight to see, especially since it never snows where I live.

Of course, we also had Hurricane Harvey that year which I didn’t even think was going to hit my town, but it did and the power was out at my house for, like, three days. Fun? No. Could it have been worse? Yeah, it could have. There are people who lost everything in that storm and my heart breaks for them. It was heartbreaking to think about the people who lost their homes and, much worse, lost loved ones.

What are my hopes for the new decade in general? More love, more kindness, more compassion. My personal hopes? I want to grow as a person and contribute something good to the world. This world needs more light and less darkness, and I hope that I can do my part in making that a reality.

Now that I’ve done my New Years Eve rambling, I just want to say that I hope you all have a wonderful new year and I wish you peace, love, and light in the years to come!

– Brooke

Cold Nights, Cold Days

So it started out as a random cough OUT OF NOWHERE. A little *cough* here, a little *cough cough* there. I just thought, “Huh. That’s weird.” But I figured it would just wear off and that it was nothing at all! Oh no, no problem! Wellll….

It did indeed become a problem. By the next day, I had a stuffy nose, a headache, a sore throat, I didn’t want to get out of bed. Really, what even…
HOWEVER, I have still tried to make a negative out of a positive, starting with getting the delicious sliders from Subway! Really, y’all, I have a developed a bit of an addiction to the Subway sliders. I started out with the Little Cheesesteak Sliders, but now I am LOVING the Little Turkey Sliders. So I got me some, went home, and sat in my kitchen, ate them sliders, and wished that I WASN’T SICK.

Now, even though I have been miserable these last few days, I have tried to distract myself by focusing on some happy things. You know, doing some things I enjoy. First, I am crocheting a tote bag to carry my art supplies in. Things like my sketch pad, pencils, blending stumps, erasers, colored pencils, etc. I am a human who likes going places and I also like creating, so OF COURSE I need to make one of those. I am also trying to deal with the RIDICULOUS amount of yarn scraps I have by making a scarf (I made a super cute hat, so why not a scarf? Besides, I feel like I have more yarn scraps than ACTUAL skeins of yarn and I want to change that ASAP). I still felt yucky, but at least I could inject a little happiness.

As of right now, I am feeling a lot better. I still have the darn cough and my nose is a little red, but at least I don’t feel totally gross. The problem with having a cold is that it takes FOR-EV-ER to go away. It’s not as unpleasant as having the flu (trust me, I’ve had that too and IT AIN’T FUN), but it is very annoying and it takes forever to wear off. So I’m not thrilled about that, but hey, I have my crochet hooks, my yarns, my drawing supplies, and some good music to play, so it’s all good!

Now that I’ve rambled about my week, I want to just talk about something else. If you’ve read my previous entries, you may have seen some of my poetry. I want to start posting my writings again, so that’ll be happening soon! Maybe Writings Wednesday? Storyteller Saturday? I mean, knowing me, it won’t even be on a schedule, it’ll just be random, but the idea’s interesting, so who knows.

Next, I want to show off my favorite crochet hooks because they are pretty and I love them.

The first one is the pretty floral one because I really like pretty things and floral designs, so I was very excited for this one. Plus, it’s very comfortable to hold while I’m working!

The second one is really cool because IT LIGHTS UP! Literally, I had to buy batteries to go with it and it has a switch so I could crochet even in darker lighting!

The third one is just a cool shape and pretty color, lol. I thought it was neat and it always has a good result after using!

The last one is made of birch wood and it’s the one I am currently using to make my scarf. So far, so good!

So that’s…well, that. I’ve been rambling about my cold for most of the entry, so I wanted to talk about something happy, even if it’s just showing off my cute crochet hooks! Gotta love the simple things, after all.

But anyway, that’s all for this time! Hopefully I will be cold-free by the time I post again. Have a wonderful day, night, evening, whatever time it is in your part of the world! Stay beautiful and be kind always!

                                                                                –  Brooke

Guess Who’s Back

Has it really been almost a year since my last post?

*cue cricket noises*

Yep, it has.

Anyway, yeah, I’m back! I was having trouble finding inspiration for the past few months, but I’ve missed talking to you all! So, paperheartsandstarrynights has returned. Hello!

Now, what have I been up to since we last talked? Workin’, creatin’, etc. Y’know, the usual. I recently joined my town’s art league and I entered one of my drawings in their fall art show, so that’s fun! And I’ve been crocheting, of course. Yesterday I finished a hat that I am REALLY proud of. In fact, here’s a pic!

.20Let’s just say I’m reeeeeaaaallly looking forward to winter now. There’s Christmas, New Year’s Rockin’ Eve, and now I have a stylish hat to wear when Queen Elsa decides to roll into town (I couldn’t resist referencing Frozen). Now, what else….

OH!

Writing. I have a creative writing degree, so obviously I’ve been writing. I’m no published author (yet!), but I do have some novel ideas in mind. One in particular has been on my mind for the past few months and now all I need to do is buckle down and, well, write.

Speaking of writing, I’m going to be posting some of my poetry on this blog, so keep an eye out for that! Maybe I’ll even try writing some short stories, yes?

Well, that’s basically all I’ve got for now. I just wanted to reintroduce the blog! Talk to y’all again soon!

                                                                                –  Brooke

A Spooktacular Halloween

Is the title totally predictable and not-so-creative? Yeah, but oh well! It’s still kinda cute, I’ve gotta admit. And now I am going do what I said I was gonna do in my last entry. I’m going to reveal my Halloween costume! This year I was….

A UNICORN!

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I noticed that unicorns seemed to be popular among little girls, so I thought, “hmmmm, I’m gonna be a unicorn this year. Now, the wig DID NOT come with the costume, but come on, could I really be a fun, colorful, magical unicorn and NOT have a cool wig? Of course not! So of course I went all out with the wig, the face stickers, and all that fun stuff!

I had a great time sitting outside and handing out candy to the kids. They looked so cute! And one car drove by with the Michael Myers theme song playing and I thought that was really neat! I recognized that song right away, lol.

And now that Halloween is almost over, I gotta get started on NATIONAL NOVEL WRITING MONTH! I already have my novel idea and now I gotta work on writing 50,000 words in a WHOLE MONTH. I am so, so, so excited! It’s going to be so much fun writing this novel. Of course, the story does have a lot of sad moments because it explores things like grief and tragedy, but it also has family, friendship, and self-discovery. I’m looking forward to exploring all of these and seeing how my characters deal with it all.

Last, but definitely not least, yesterday was the one year anniversary of this blog. I have been enjoying it so much and I am very much looking forward to another year of sharing my life and experiences with you all! Hopefully you’ve found something that either inspired you, helped you, made you laugh, or whatever else! Thank you for an awesome first year of paperheartsandstarrynights.

– Brooke

AS HALLOWEEN APPROACHES…

Y’all, I was trying to think of a good title for this entry and THAT up there is the best I could do. Sorry. Anywaaaaay, I know it’s not Halloween yet, but I can’t wait until October 31st to talk about it! Candy, costumes, scarrrry movies, all that fun stuff! *cue the suspenseful theme music*

First, I may be 25 years old, but in my opinion, you are never to old to put on a costume and hand out candy to the little ones! Yep, that’s my tradition. Pick out an awesome costume (I’m not going to share what I’m doing this year until Halloween, so shhhhhh!!!!), buy a few bags of candy, put ’em in two or three jack ‘o lantern candy carriers (or whatever those things are called), get a comfy chair, and wait for the kiddos to start showing up!

Now, like I said, I won’t be sharing this year’s costume until Halloween, but I can show you one of my PAST costumes.

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I’m a big fan of masks! Especially the sparkly ones. Basically, anything sparkly or fluffy. My costume for this year falls into the FLUFFY category. It’s pretty cute, if I do say so myself 😉

As for candy, I always try to pick a variety. I personally love Reeses Peanut Butter Cups, so obviously I include those in my collection. Oh, and maybe some Hershey’s. And Tootsie Rolls! Can you tell I love chocolate? Hahaha.

Now, even though Halloween hasn’t arrived, I’ve already started watching a few scary movies since October started. I’ll admit, I enjoy the ones that involve ghosts. Here’s a picture of my cat, Pepper, to best describe my reaction when watching scary movies.

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(This was taken last year and he had been to the vet, and they had to shave a little of his fur. Poor Fluffybutt.)

Seriously though, his expression makes for a perfect reaction pic, lol.  He cute, though. He cute.

Anyway, back to scary movies. I’m picky with my scary movies. I REFUSE to watch The Exorcist, The Exorcism of Emily Rose, etc. Like, NOPE. Nope nope nope. Even those are too much for me. *shivers*

But that’s all for now. I’ll reveal my Halloween costume on October 31st! Also, I’m back on Twitter, so follow me @ stcrryniights, especially if you love arts and crafts, inspirational quotes, memes, music, and more!

– Brooke

 

CAST  AWAY 

I gotta stop waiting so long between entries! I mean, I’ll admit that I had a bit of Writer’s Block, though.  BUT I got back that inspiration in time for the one-year-anniversary of this blog, which will be on October 30!  Ahhhhh, that’s awesome! I’d felt inspired to blog for a while and last year, I finally did it. So needless to say, I’m pretty excited.

Now, onto today’s topic.

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” –1 Peter 5:7

This is something that I am still working on. Even the small stuff. When something goes wrong, I find it hard to just let it go. Often I will dwell on these things for hours, even a few days. But I want to get better at NOT doing that, because let’s face it, there’s better things to do beside dwelling over small stuff. Just like 1 Peter 5:7 says, cast your anxiety on Him! He cares for you!

For me, I’ve been doing a little self discovery over the past few months, and with the uncertainty came a lot of worry. Would I ever do this? Would I ever do that? Who AM I exactly? Truthfully, I’m still on that journey, even at the age of 25. I’m not as worried about it now, though.  I’m just going with the flow and taking it one day at a time. Normally, I’d say, well, what’s next? I don’t know and I’ll not going to drive myself insane trying to figure it out.  Trust me, it’s exhausting.

And the doubt. Oh, the doubt. I still struggle with that at times too. I wonder if I’m good enough at my job or if I’m good enough to do anything except keep to myself and avoid failure. (Yeah right, like THAT will happen.)

But then I think about that verse again and I am reminded to cast my worries on him, instead of holding onto them, because he cares about me and wants me to have a peaceful mind and a peaceful heart. I often fall short, but I try. I really do. I mean, there is so much in life to ENJOY! It doesn’t have to be anything big either. Even the little things can mean SO VERY MUCH.

Even something as simple as sitting down and working on a new knitting project or planning my novel is special. It allows me to channel my artistic side and create something beautiful. It gives me some quiet time to put the stress of daily life aside and get create. It’s exciting, it’s fun, it’s relaxing!

Then there are the bigger things, like family, friends, and most of all, Jesus. For me, thinking of these things provides me with comfort in the low moments. I am reminded that whatever I am feeling in that moment is temporary, but these other things are forever.

Now, I want to talk to YOU, the reader. Do you have something you are worrying about today? Something that you can’t quite let go of? Well, think about this. When you are moving from one house to another, you likely have a few boxes that are too heavy to carry on your own.  So think of life like one big move, where you are moving from one place to the next. If you are carrying heavy boxes full of worry, it makes it much harder to move to the next point, doesn’t it? Well, cast those boxes of worry onto Jesus. He cares too much to see you try to carry the weight of the world on your own! When those boxes get too heavy, give them to HIM and focus on all the positives as you move to your next point in life. Cast those worries AWAY!

Stay strong, stay focused, and remember that we do not have to travel this journey alone.

– Brooke