I haven’t always been totally satisfied with myself or where my life was headed. It was all uncertainty and fear and frustration. I was always criticizing myself, always wondering if things would change for me. Not that my life has been bad! No, not even close! God has blessed me in so many ways. But I suppose I have spent a lot of time wondering if I would find my purpose in life or if I would improve as a person. Because let’s face it, when you spent your early adult years (and even some time before that) with anxiety being rude and keeping you down, it can put, well, a huge damper on things. *cringe* Not fun.
But I am working on some important changes. Small changes, but still important. First of all, I found out a while back that the infamous “freshman fifteen” is a very real thing and truthfully I think I gained a little more than just the freshman fifteen. Not healthy for one’s physical being or their self-image. Over the past few years, I have attempted dieting several times, only to get discouraged and give up. Well, I’m going to fix that this time! I could feel that it was beginning to affect me in negative ways and honestly, who wants to live like that! So today I am going to get back on the right track and actually lose some weight, eat healthier, and get that confidence back!
But while losing weight and improving my health is important to me, it’s not the MOST important. No, I’m talking about faith. As a Christian, it’s so important to read God’s Word and really spend time with Him, but I’ll admit, I haven’t been very good at dedicating time to reading the Bible. Until recently. I have started reading some Bible verses and writing them down, then picking one of those verses and reading the chapter that it’s from.
And that’s where I get to the next change. The Bible I’ve been reading has an index in the back with specific words (such as grief, anxiety, peace, etc.) and verses that talk about those certain things. Well, yesterday I read about discouragement. I sometimes feel discouraged when things don’t seem to be moving how I want them to. I haven’t found my dream job yet and sometimes it’s easy to start thinking, “it’ll never happen” or “I may fail.” I sometimes get anxious that I won’t really get anywhere in life. This time, however, instead of letting myself become caught up in such negativity, I chose to turn to God.
“Overcoming discouragement brings great blessings.”
That made me really think! Instead of drowning in discouragement, I am choosing to overcome that and trust God to do his will in my life. He knows what my purpose is and I am praying for him to show me what that is.
I’m working to become better in all ways and I can’t wait to see what the future holds for me.
Also, I finally crocheted a hat and I am now crocheting a bag. I’m also knitting a blanket, but blankets take a long time and sometimes I need a second project to work on. So I’m making positive changes in my life, and that also includes learning something new!